unconditional love beauty unwavering kindness understanding perspective forever
a few years a few months tomorrow the right words at the right time orgasms pleasure pleasantness that i am pleasant that i am lovable that i am worthy
that i am a pause for thought that i am not a stranger that i am not an actor
that i am not a master of illusion a contortionist a magician
that i am not excellent at making things disappear
that we won't look back in five years struggle to recall surnames smiles
shared secrets that we won't be an echo of deja vu in the next fuck buddy's nervous laughter that it won't all feel so meaningless and fleeting that i won't run from you like a crime scene that you won't become a blood stain i want to bleach with my own spit
unconditional love beauty unwavering kindness understanding perspective forever my god
i could fill a forest's worth of notebooks with all the things i cannot promise you
but know this right now i am seasick with joy and right now a promise can only stretch so far
as the length of my fingers walking the path of your dormant spine as you sleep